Winter
arrived today. The winds are greedy and fierce, and ripping away the burnished gold
remnants and tossing them hurriedly to the ground. The sky is bands of iron and
lead and bright ivory. The earth appears stunned and a bit frightened.
Winter is
more than a hint now, and has announced its coming with a splattering of cold
ferocity. The trees are being stripped bare, and the ground browns and hardens.
Yes, there will be a few warmer days which carry memories of an Indian summer,
but for the most part the methodical march to Winter has begun. There is simply
no stopping it now, and we are all aware of its steely determination.
Folks get
anxious with its coming, and claim to dread how it traps and punishes us for
months at a time, but that is not it. Winter is just too candid about death and
dying, and too familiar with this thing called aging. This is the season of
solitude and stillness and silence, and it reverberates with eerie echoes of the
vanishing of summer play.
Winter is
when we see Time through a wide scoped lens. Childhood has been swept under a
vile stained Oriental rug, and adolescence is no more than a whiff of sex and
strutting and pretending to be bold. Adulthood has proven a cruel joke, all
duty and obligation and haste, and the absence of adventure or joy seeming
almost absolute. We try to act as if we accept it, and yet it has so drained us
of our yearnings.
We are not
angry or even hurt. We have our days of satisfaction of even significance. Still,
so much of it has been a disappointment, a failure to live up to its billing,
like a Christmas spoiled by a family spat or squabble. Winter weaves its stern
shawl about our shoulders, and we know that we will be tucked in under blankets
of our losses. What makes Winter truly brutal, is simply all it knows of our
failures and flops and refusals to forgive.
No, the
dread of Winter is not created out of some fear of record snows or even cold,
but for the whispered messages it delivers on things being over for another
year. It is a time of passage, a movement of the clock, a slowing of the pulse,
and a waning appetite for dawn. Like the tufted pearl grey sky which lower
before unleashing a wild and wicked series of drifts, grinding our lives to a
halt, Winter comes with immense insight into the brevity of Life as a whole.
I am
listening to it as I write. It’s rumbling train whistling winds, and its fury
over our having failed to notice the spectacular presence of autumn. It does
not knock, but knocks down the door to our soul. It comes in unannounced and
takes up residence. It is here. Not a visitor, but making itself very much at
home. It has plans for us.
Winter
slouches into an easy chair readies itself to tell many a good story. Tales of
hard fought wisdom won, and sagas of journeys that led to love or hope or
happiness or all three. These stories will be what enlivens our status as
victims of cabin fever, and will heal us into Spring. These good stories, which
will bounce about our lie battered brains, and dance a heated dance with our
memories of years gone by, will be our soul’s wintering feast.
These good
stories are the beauty of Winter. Even more lovely than a first snow, or a
black velvet sugared sky. These stories will arouse longings deep within us,
and move us to the higher ground of wanting another go, another year, another
try. These words coated in the Word of God, will inspire us, will tickle us
back to Life, but Life on God’s terms and not our own. Winter is when we do not
become better, but smarter. It is when we finally recognize the wisdom of
following stars – as we are all made of stardust, and it is only logical.
Winter
arrived today, and like a stern elementary school teacher with wrinkles galore
and a hard grey bun atop her head, will tell us to STOP AND LOOK AND LISTEN –
get ready to learn. Now be quiet children, and listen up, way up, and let the
heavens inform you of the Truth of this crazy difficult life of yours.